Our Final Home Study Visit

Yesterday morning, we had our final home study visit.  To say I'm glad that part is over is an understatement.  To have a stranger look through your home is a little nerve wrecking.  In the back of my mind, I always wonder- "Did we pass this test?"  "Are we qualified yet?  Because we've sure done a whole lot for this!"  The questions they ask you, or make your write down is ridiculous and so personal.  But, as my friend Russ reminded me- they have to ask those questions because somewhere down the road, some crazy person tried to adopt kids...makes total sense!

Hopefully by the end of next week, we'll be considered "open" in the system.  That means we can be eligible to become matches with kids.  Who knows how long it will take- it's all part of a waiting game.  After the lady left yesterday, I really couldn't describe what I was feeling.  I was overwhelmed at the whole process all over again.  I kept thinking- we've done this much...gone through a lot of personal questions...and what if we don't get what we want in the end?

Then, Luke answered my question.  He told me when we got all 5 dogs- we didn't know what we were getting into.  We've gone through a LOT with them all.  They are all special needs, and they aren't purebreds by any means.  We didn't know what we wanted then- and we don't know what we want now.  However, the Lord knows.  He knew we could handle the craziness that comes with having 5 special needs dogs.  He also has provided for their every need.  So, if He can do that with our four legged babies, why would He not do that with our kids?

So for now, we'll continue to wait on Him.  I'm excited right now, but reserved.  It's all so much to put into words.  Thankfully, the Lord knows my heart, and He loves me no matter what!