Luke and I have had a crazy last 48 hours. We were on board with the two kiddos we met at the picnic. We prayed about it all weekend. I even prayed about it on my morning walk. I asked God to please close this door if they were not the children for us. Well, as of about an hour ago- He did.
We found out more information that Luke and I both didn't think we were strong enough to handle. We both went into this knowing that this road to adoption wouldn't be easy, and we hit the nail on the head. What these poor kiddos have to endure to no fault of their own is so sad.
Will we ever know why these sweet kiddos were brought into our lives? Why were there so many similarities in their information that were special to us? I will never know or understand. However, I can say this. If the Lord only brought these two into our lives to pray for them- well, then that's what we'll do.
Am I heart broken and sad over the possibility that these two weren't the children for us? I can honestly say that I am not. The Lord has guarded my heart in this process and I'm really OK with the outcome. The bottom line is that Luke and I want the kids that the Lord wants for us. They are out there somewhere. For now, we'll just continue to pray for these two as well as our future kids.
Their rooms are waiting- and so are we!
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